A sermon for the First Sunday of Advent from 2010.
A sermon for the First Sunday of Advent from 2010.
When I started seminary 15 years ago, I had come to accept that I would never pastor a church. I just wasn’t a people person. Maybe I’d be a seminary professor or something. I didn’t know it back then, but I was basically acknowledging my Aspergers limitations.
Of course, as you can tell, I didn’t end up as a seminary prof. Instead, I’ve been the Associate Pastor at a church for nearly five years. And somehow, I’ve managed to not mess things up, praise be to God.
Just shortly after my Aspergers diagnosis, I wrote about what my future would be in the ministry. I had my doubts at times, but as this blog post from May 2008 shows, I was thinking about what conditions would make for a good pastorate:
Last night, I watched the Associate Pastor at the church I am a part of. We had our weekly prayer service- now biweekly during the summer months- and she was talking with two members of our congregation whose daughter, son-in-law and children were brutally affected by a tornado that hit the northern Twin Cities suburbs. She was skilled in being truly a pastor to them during this horrible time. As watched this scene, it occurred to me: I couldn’t do what she is doing- or at least it doesn’t come to me as naturally…
While I am relieved about my diagnosis of Aspergers, it leaves me with a big question regarding vocation: what in the world do you do with a pastor that has autism?
I’ve been around long enough to know that pastors tend to be social beings. They are supposed to be the kind of people who can connect with others. They “get” social cues. They know how to deal with sudden change. So what about someone like me who isn’t any of that? How in the world can I be a pastor if I don’t have those skills?
For a long time, I’ve wondered where I fit in the church. I knew I didn’t fit, but didn’t know why. But now I need to figure out how to use my gifts in ministry, how to use my Aspergers not as a deficit, but as an advantage.
I know that I need to be in environments that are structured and have some sense of stability. That has made me think of some kind of Associate Ministry. However, at least in the metro area, there are no possibilities for that kind of ministry among Disciple churches and very few in UCC circles. I guess I could start looking outstate and see what happens.
What I have wanted to do is to maybe create some kind of ministry in a congregation where I would be on staff probably bivocational. Maybe it would be to perform worship or lead Christian Education. But it would be something that is regimented.
Five years later, I’m the Associate Pastor at a church and I have spelled out duties.
As I look back over those five years, I can see how I’ve been stretched, having to move out of my comfort zones. No matter how much you try to keep things as routine as possible, there are going to be times where things won’t be routinized…where things will be chaotic. What I’ve had to learn as someone who is autistic is that sometimes things can’t be routine. If someone is in pain and needs help, you have to learn to summon strength from somewhere and help that person.
Last summer, I got a call at 10:30pm from the office manager. A longtime member of the church had died. We were between pastors, so I had to meet with the family in St. Paul. My android brain might have wanted to protest, but I had a job to do. I had to be human for a little while to help a family that had lost their loved one. A wife of 60 years needed someone to hold her hand.
What has happened over the last few years is become more…human. It’s not that I was some monster before this, but being a pastor means you have to engage people, giving someone a hug when they need one, or listening when they need to rant. None of this comes easy to me, and like most persons with Aspergers, you learn to fake it til you make it.
I’m still somewhat android-like in that when I see someone that needs something from me my brain starts whirring and spitting out a command that I should do. If someone is mad and hurt, my brain says, “Hug person.” And so, I give them a hug. No, it’s not warm and fuzzy, but I get the job done. And maybe in someway I learn to be a real boy along the way.
So, five years later, I’ve learned so much about people and I’ve learned so much about ministry. It tells me that I can do this whole pastor thing, and there’s even a benefit along the way: the robot-boy is becoming a human….almost.
Anyone who’s read this blog knows I tend to be critical of mainline Christianity. It’s not that I want to leave what has been my theological home for two decades; it’s that I get frustrated at some of it’s shortcomings.
Despite all of that, mainline/progressive/liberal Christianity is my home. As much as I respect my evangelical beginnings, I don’t belong there anymore. My current home might be a fixer-upper, but it’s still home.
So, I get a bit sad when I hear stories about how Mainline Protestantism is shrinking. People leave the church. Congregations close. Denominational offices keep cutting staff. Will this form of Christianity even be around in 20 years or so?
The thing is, I do see some signs of a church that is trying to keep the lights on. My day job with the Presbyterians is located in the Minnesota Church Center, which is home to several denominations. During the building-wide weekly Lenten service, someone from the Episcopal Diocese in Minnesota shared a unique way of studying Scripture that has been used among Native American Anglicans. This wasn’t some of flimsy stuff I sometimes find in liberal churches. This had substance.
Even in the church that I serve, I’ve seen signs of life and a church willing to live and be open to the Spirit. There is still good things going on in mainline churches.
An article in the Orange County Register talks about the signs of hope taking place in Mainline congregations in the suburban California county. The author of the article does a good job as he shares what is going on several congregations and helps us understand that in light of the recent decline among evangelical churches, that the reasons for decline among the mainline is not simply because they decided to have a more liberal theology. The increasing secularization of American society has caused churches to adapt. Here’s what one Disciples of Christ congregation did:
At Harbor Christian Church in Newport Beach, a member of the Disciples of Christ denomination, members solved the Sunday morning problem by shifting activities to Sunday evening or other days of the week.
Pastor Wes Knight said attendance at adult spiritual formation classes shot up when they were shifted to Sunday night.
Now, 30 people come weekly for a potluck supper and member-taught classes on topics ranging from forgiveness to the spirituality of pottery.
Knight said Harbor Christian, surrounded by several of Orange County’s largest churches, embraces its identity “as an alternative to the megachurch.”
There are no theological requirements for membership, and the roughly 70 worshippers who attend each Sunday are intimately involved in one another’s lives.
“They’re just like my own family to me,” said Mike Nelson of Mission Viejo who recalled being enthusiastically welcomed at the church when he arrived five years ago, even though he was struggling with a methamphetamine addiction.
“I tried the megachurches and didn’t find any sense of community,” Nelson said. Harbor Christian members “didn’t judge me at all.”
Read the whole thing. It gives me hope that while the mainline churches might be smaller in the future, but by God we will be around in the future, preaching, teaching and welcoming the stranger.
Some of you might have noticed that there is an article in the most recent Christian Century with a Disciples pastor in Minneapolis by the name of Dennis Sanders. I haven’t said much about it, but I wanted to provide some background to the article.
Steve Thorngate, the editor sent me an email over the summer asking if I would take part in the magazine’s series on ministry in the 21st century. So began a number of emails back and forth, with Steve asking some really good questions and I trying to answer them as best as I could.
I do want to say thanks to Steve for being patient as I tried to answer his questions and for giving me the chance to think about my ministry. There are a lot of good people that have been interviewed for the series. I don’t know if I’m at the caliber of the other ministers, but I am glad to tell my story and the story of the wonderful church that I’m honored to serve.
“In God We Trust”
Twentieth Sunday After Pentecost
October 14, 2012
First Christian Church
I will admit it: I really don’t like this passage.
Why don’t I like it? For a lot of reasons. I don’t like how people sometimes use this passage to lord over others. People who are full of themselves and like to preach against all those confortable folks in the pews with their nice houses in the suburbs. Never mind said preacher has most of the accutrments of modern society like an iPhone and/or a laptop and nice clothes. If you’re gonna go around acting like a prophet, you might want to actually try living as one.
I also don’t like this text for some opposite reasons. I don’t like how we try to soften this passage. Pastors and others try to make the text more palatable by saying that the whole camel thought the eye of a needle referred to the beast entering a smaller door fit for them. We try to say that Jesus was just testing the young man on what was keeping him from God. It might be wealth for one person, but it might be something else entirely for another person.
There is another reason I don’t like this text and it comes down to this: it’s just too personal for me. There’s a fear that this verse is speaking to me as well and if it came down to selling everything I have and giving it to the poor to follow Jesus, my response would be just like the young ruler. I’m hardly rich, by American means, but I don’t know if I could give up my car or iPad or home and follow some long-haired hippie. Continue reading
With Trinity Sunday coming up, I decided to share a sermon I gave on Trinity Sunday 2009.
“Come to the Table”
Isaiah 6:1-8, John 3:1-17
June 7, 2009
First Christian Church
A few months ago, my partner Daniel and I were invited to have high tea. A friend of mine this in an auction and she invited serveral of her friends to the event, including me.
I was not looking forward to it.
I had this fear that I would have to learn to how have tea. I was scared that I would not hold the tea cup in the right way and that I would make a fool of myself.
Well, the day came and Daniel and I went to a suburban house in Richfield. A woman in her 50s or 60s came to the door dressed quite nicely. We went in and sat down at a table that was adorned with nice china. It was all nice, but I was nervous. Finally, it was time for the tea and the cookies. But instead of worrying about if I had to have my pinky up or not, what happened was rather surprising. The circle of friends gathered and started sharing what was going on in their lives. My fears subsided as I realized there was less concern about getting things right than there was about the relationships that were happening at that moment.
The Sunday after Pentecost is called Trinity Sunday, when we focus on God as the Three in One: God the Father or Creator, God the Son or the Redeemer, and God the Holy Spirit or Sustainer. This Sunday is an interesting Sunday for those of us who belong to this tradition in Christianity called the Disciples of Christ. Alexander Campbell, one of the founders of what became the Disciples, did not focus on the Trinity. The reason was that there was no mention of it in the Bible. Since we were a people of the book, it made no sense to spend time in a concept that was not mentioned in the Bible.
And he is right of course, if you read the Bible, especially the New Testament, you will not find the word, “trinity.” The concept of Trinity is not a biblical per se, it’s a doctrinal statement that came later in the life of the Chrisitianity. So, since it was considered a doctrine, and we Disciples tend to be non-doctrinal, the Trinity doesn’t get talked about a whole lot among Disciples.
Now, one doesn’t have to believe in the Trinity to be a good Christian. However, it is a way to think about the nature of God, a way to explain God. There are a lot of different ways to try to describe God and the Trinity is one of those ways. The Trinity also reminds us how we are to be church, how we are to be God’s children in the world. For some reason, the Trinity has me thinking of food and tea, tables, mission and grace.
In the John text, we introduced to Nicodemus. We find out that he is a Pharisee and is intriguied by Jesus. He comes to visit Jesus under the cover of darkness to find out more about this man. I can imagine him walking down the streets at night, trying to make sure no one sees him and then going to a door on a side street and knocking the door. One of the disciples opens the door and leads him to a room where Jesus is sitting with tea or coffee at the waiting. Nicodemus sits and the two converse among many, many cups of tea. Nicodemus was well versed in the law and believed he had done all the right things. But Jesus starts talking about being “born again” and about how being born of water and Spirit. Jesus tells Nicodemus that it is not about one has done for God, but what God has done for us; how God loved the world so much that he sent Jesus to live among us.
What happens during this late night visit is the beginning of a relationship. Nicodemus is captivated by this man named Jesus, and begins to get closer to him. We later see the Pharisee stand up for Jesus and after the crucifixion works with others to find proper burial place for Jesus.
In our Isaiah text, we see that a person is being called by God to a mission. Unlike the quiet setting found in John, this story seems rather frightening. There are angels with several wings that don’t seem like those gentle versions we see on television. We can imagine a loud voice calling the person to do this thing for God. And the person replies that he is not worthy to do carry out God’s mission. And then we have this odd vision of one of these horrid looking angels getting a fiery coal and placing it on the person’s mouth as a sign of his now being made clean by God. Once he was made clean by God, the person in this story can now claim in a strong voice, “here I am! Send me.”
If there is one thing I want you to remember, is that the concept of the Trinity is about seeing God as a God that wants to be in relationship. God is in relationship within God, and God wants to be relationship with all of creation, including humanity.
There is a painting by Andrei Rublev, a Russain artist, that shows what the Trinity is all about and gives a clue into what it means to be church. (show the painting).
Gathered around a table are three figures reprenting the Trinity. You can see the three seated around this table and sharing each others lives. Notice that there is one seat that is open. It’s an ivitation to come and sit with God.
God is not about trying to do the right thing. In some ways, many people are like I was before that tea party, worried that I would do the wrong thing. But God is more interested in having a relationship with us.
Sometimes we are afraid to be in relationship with God. Sometimes we feel that we are not worthy and sometimes we just stay away. But just as God cleaned the writer in Isaiah, we are made clean by God through Jesus Christ. It was through the life death and ressurection that we are made clean and called to do God’s work in the world.
As members of First Christian, we have been in the midst of a study called Ubinding the Gospel and we have been implored to learn to share the good news of Jesus with others. I can imagine, that at times, we might feel not up to the task. We feel ashamed that we are not sharing the gospel with others and feel unclean.
I want to challenge you to see sharing the good news not in the form of a task that one should do, as some boring task of duty, but as engaging in a relationship. It’s about sharing our lives with each other over a cup of coffee. It’s about inviting someone to dinner and seeing how your family and friends are doing. Evangelism isn’t not about trying to accost someone with the good news of God, but it is going out in the world and being in relationship with people; sharing our lives with each other. And since God is part of our lives, we will share that part of our life as well.
I want to read something to you: it’s the mission statement for First Christian. “In response to the grace of God, the mission of First Christian Church is to be a Christ-centered presence, to share the Good News of Jesus Christ, and to witness through service to God’s World.”
We don’t go out and talking about how we encounter God because we have to. We do it in response for what God has done for us. God has in Jesus showed that God loves us. In response that we are loved by God, we can be a presence in the world, being in relationship with our friends and neighbors and even strangers. We seek to get to know people and get to know about their hopes and fears and seek ways to help them and to just be Christ to them. We seek to be in relationship when we serve food to the hungry at St. Stephen’s shelter. Being church is not about a building or committee, or pews or an organ. Those are all nice, but church is about a table,, where the Trinity invites us to come and share our lives and where we are so in love with God that we want to go out and invite others to the table.
And that’s what we do every week, don’t we? We come to this table where we are reminded of God’s love for us. We don’t have to worry if we are worthy, God has already made us worthy, God has made everyone worthy.
I want to leave you with a final image. As many of you know, there was a time long ago, when I was a member of this congregation. I remember the first time I visited this church, Labor Day weekend of 1996. I went to the service and then came home to do some other things. Later that evening, a I heard a knock on the door. There was a man in his 50s with a loaf of bread and a packet. The man was from First Christian and wanted to thank me for visiting. The man was Garry Hesser, who is a member here. I was invited to enter a relationship and decided to take up the invite. I would remember later on having conversations with Garry and Martha Harris over tea as we talked about the nature of God.
God is not calling us to duty; God wants us to be in realtionship with God and with each other. God is about having tea with friends and sharing our lives. We are invited to the Table. Come to the Table. Be yourself. Feel free to invite others. Thanks be to God. Amen.
The painting is called The Trinity, by Andrei Rublev.
I’m not going to get into the specifics of the whole Komen controversy because its been done ad nausem. But I do have one question: where should the Church be in all this?
The whole mess concerning the two groups was one more annoying incident in the culture wars. Each side, including many a Christian, took their usual sides in this forever battle. We slunged mud at the other side with equal ferocity, all in the name of being on the side of right, of course.
But how should followers of Jesus respond? How do we handle issues in ways that aren’t aping what we seeing the wider culture? Why are we so quick to turn even an issue that everyone agrees is a major problem: breast cancer, into war of words? Why are people so willing to paint everything as black and white and not try to see another viewpoint or veiwpoints?
What is sorely missing in the life of the church today, no matter what side you are on, is how to think theologically and engage culture. What we tend to do is hold on to our positions, convinced they are God’s instead of sitting down and trying to discern things. Instead of trying to find God’s will, we have already decided we know God’s will and need to tell those other guy how stupid and evil they are.
The Church, liberal and conservatives, have acted like asses in the last few days. When it comes to showing a “more excellent way” of being in the world. We fall short.